Do you have a vision for your life? Or have you relinquished and feel that you've "ended up" where you are? I don't believe any of us has ended up anywhere. It doesn't matter how old you are, there is always room to change your circumstances and improve things in your life.
I feel that I have acres of room to improve my life. I have visions of where I'd like to be in 5, 10, and 20 years from now. I even have plans for next year. But I think it's important to recognize that it's only February and 2012 has just begun. So what to do with the gift of the next 10 months of this year?
For myself, I'm working on the little goals. Goal #1 is to get my wrist back into shape. I start physical therapy on Thursday and I can't wait. I know it'll hurt, but it will be a healing kind of pain. I survived sepsis and flash pulmonary edema...I can handle a little wrist manipulation.
What's got me in such an existential mood today is that I woke up feeling despair. I haven't worked in 4 months, I very rarely get to see my friends, and I haven't felt well enough to go out or exercise or do too much. Woe is me, right? Perspective is a powerful thing.
How about: I almost died twice this year, but I lived! I haven't been able to work, but I've still been getting paid! I may not have seen my friends much, but the important people have stayed in contact with me, even if it's not face-to-face! I haven't been feeling well but I've been healing and I know that soon I will be back to my old self! Maybe an even better version of myself! And most importantly, I've been out of the hospital for over a month!
Perspective.
I catch myself daydreaming about my life a lot these days. There are things I would love to experience, people I would love to meet, and I have an image of myself and what I could be and look like. Mostly, I just brush off those dreams and try to concentrate on the now. But what's so wrong about dreaming? And why does it have to stay just a dream? Why can't I do those things, meet those people, and become who I would like to become?
People do it everyday. They achieve their goals and they live their dreams. That could be me. Maybe it will be me. Maybe I should give myself the benefit of the doubt and go back to a time when I truly believed I could do absolutely anything.
Maybe I should change my perspective. How about you?
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